ELLO ALL MY TWINKLING LITTLE STARS and Merry Crisis to all of you!!!! Sorry for the hiatus - I mean it when I say - I genuinely had nothing to say for minute. I got super down and low on myself, feeling all ~I’ve peaked~ ish and it was no bueno. But, alas here we are - back and not too much better LOL but with something new to talk about. JK - ya gurl actually just landed a brand new gig and we’ll get into it all in a minute.

I know you all know that I lost my job in September (queue the world’s smallest violin) I know, I’m not special; more people than not lost their jobs this year #CovidCurse - AND I AIN’T GONNA LIE - in the beginning, I got a BIGGGG ego. I got a job offer from a company in less than a week from getting the boot. And, you guessed it- I SAID NO. Now, I know that everyone has a different situation they're in. I was fortunate enough to be able to hold out for a job that I felt passionate about and that would paid me what I felt I was worth. #DollaBillz. I was not ready to admit to myself that maybe I needed to take a step back before I launch my career forward. However - I did have a phenomenal support system back home and super hot bf Joe pulled through for being the world’s best shoulder to cry on. It all made getting through the tough unknowns a little easier.

BUT - you may be asking where I’m going with this…*focusing in on ADD* On more than one occasion, people questioned me about my social media/blog and whether or not I believed they were a factor in me not hearing back from more companies. Was I not getting interviews because I was checking yes to that “currently have or have a history of a disability” box? Hmm - I got to thinking…compromise who I am to fit into a corporate box…LMAOOOOO yeah right. I’ll be honest, there were a couple of times where I looked at the question on applications about “disabilities” and the lengthy list of vastly different things that qualify. I want to believe that more people than not are probably checking yes to that question. BUT, in my mind, since my “yes” was in relation to my mental illness - it MUST be a hindrance on my application…as if my application screams, “HEYYY OVER HERE - MENTAL INSTABILITY SAYING WHAT’S UP?!”

Barf! Now, I know that I can opt out of the question and that LEGALLY *wink wink* companies cannot discriminate based on disability. But, when it really came down to it - if I applied to a company and they found my blog, and THAT was the reason I didn't get an interview…then GOOD. I want people to see me expressing myself freely and positively. If they judge me based on that, then why would I want to work for them?! I will never, EVER compromise myself, or hide the things that make me different to get ahead in my career or any aspect of life. PERIODT.

Side Note:

~~If any of you have big families like I do, it’s sometimes hard for them to understand that way of thinking. The beauty in that problem is that I understand and we can Gabb about it together :) <3 If any of you ever feel lonely, out of it, or just want to chat, my inbox is always open!!! I don’t judge, and I’ll do my best to make y’all laugh! ~~

Listen - I know my situation is different than others. I had some savings that I had built up and was able to pull from it to take more time in my job search. I know not everyone has that luxury - so I’ll leave you with this universal advice - go forward in life being proud of who you are and never let anyone make you feel less than for being unforgivably YOU.

I love you all and I have felt so much support during this time - I owe ya! Let me know what else you want to read about and I’ll do my best to factor it in :) Peace~Love~Blessings

P.S. The job I landed is with a company super close to my apt. and I’ll be working as a Product Manager :)))

P.P.S. “When you have a million dollar vision, don’t surround yourself with one cent minds.”