Hey all you cooky crackheads out there - it's ya girl not knowing how to start a new post!

Anyways - I have gotten an overwhelming amount of positive feedback and encouragement and let me just go ahead and say YOU’RE WELCOME. lol kidding...I really appreciate all of the nice comments and what not, I DO IT FOR MY FANS ahh there I go again, sorry.

I thought I’d ride this train while I’m on it though, and continue the Covid conversation. Now that I’m #funemployed there is really no structure in my day to day, which is, for a lack of better words, downright TERRIFYING. You mean to tell me that I’m the only person in charge of myself? That’s a sick joke! Lucky for me - my roommate, Maddie is also riding the sans job bus (pls hire us), so we get to not only be sad, but get this, sad ~together~. Yes this is semi depressing (trust me we’ve faced the reality together too) but the main point I’m trying to make ISSSS supportiveness = important(ive)ness™️

I’m not going to lie - being unemployed SUCKS. I have applied for well over 100 jobs in the less than one week I’ve been let go and it’s a goddam DOG EAT DOG WORLD KIDS. Ugh. I’ve only heard back from a handful of places - seeing as it’s the middle of a national pandemic. I also want to mention, my friends have been a super awesome support system for me in this time, but to remind everyone: be a friend to get a friend. Check in on your buddies, especially when you know they’re going through it. Don’t look at them and think they need their space and what not; WE DON’T. You have no idea how far a little text goes to let someone know you’re thinking about them. Aw :’)

I’m currently finishing this and it’s 2:08 in the am! If you’re lucky like me, you can make it to 3:00 in the morning, which is commonly referred to as the witching hour. Ohhh spooky season🤪👻 but anyways, If you’re anything like me (oof) then you find some of your darkest moments at night. I use writing and my cat to keep my head on straight - but find your things that keep you in the realm of positivity. Having something to keep your mind active is much more effective than you may realize at the time. (I’ve taken up making friendship bracelets...Etsy shop TBD) I’d love for any and all of you guys to share your late night coping strategies in the comments! I sometimes knit...I’ve been knitting the same thing for 4 years (meaning I'm not good at it...I just keeps me busy). Other times - I like to clean because this gets me on my feet and out of my bed. In previous situations - when I’ve had bad thoughts, I found it helpful to take ice and rub it between my hands and a little on my arms. For someone who has ever experienced bad urges, this can be a calming sensory coping technique that one of my ~therapists~ told me about!

Anyways, now I’m ranting. I don’t like to be preachy because who am I to tell anyone anything- just yesterday I realized I had my shirt on backwards at CVS. I like to put the ass in class if ya know what I’m saying. BUT, that’s all I want to ramble about for right now. Please keep sending ideas about new posts - I’ve got nothing but time and minimal motivation so imma keep writing as long as yall keep reading!

I’ll leave you with something motivational from my quotes app:

“Instead of saying I’m damaged, I’m broken. Say, I’m healing, I’m rediscovering myself, I’m starting over.”