Home Sweet Home

Hello all my little spooky gourds! I'm coming to you live from the 315!! Yes - I've ventured home for a bit. I was super adamant on staying in Boston and being all, "Mom, you sweet thing, I'm an ADULT so I can handle turmoil all on my own!" LOL I mean who was I kidding? I'm still the equivalent of a 9 year old kid lost in a Walmart. 

So yeah, this was a tough pill to swallow. It's been almost a full month without a job and the prospects are looking QUITE DISMAL. Even the positions that excite me are all remote (kill me). All I want is a routine work life with a steady income to support me and my damn cat! (Arch gets super high maintenance this time of year.) I don't think that's too much to ask for. WELL it is. Okay I'm done being all "woah is me."

On another note - @RoommateMaddie and I have come to the conclusion that when you have no responsibilities, every day is a Saturday! (aka super dangerous on the liver) I've been trying to only limit drinking to the weekends to keep my life semi on track, but when you get 11 rejection emails on a Tuesday morning, sometimes a glass of red (bottle) won't hurt anyone.

*Nervously sweats because this isn't really funny* Sorry buddies, I'm trying to find the balance between sanity and completely LOSING ALL MY MARBLES. And honestly I have like 5 drafts of posts that I've started writing and didn't finish because - big surprise - procrastination is a hugeeee side effect of my depression!!! WOOOOH. I also have word vomit right now - I'm trying to stay on track, gimme a second here.

ANYWAYS, what I wanted to talk about is, "being honest with yourself is the best way to get through whatever you're going through." -Aristotle probably. I'm not going to lie to you guys - this part of the puzzle sucks - it's messy and it's easy to just give up. But, accepting that being with family is the best therapy (at least for me) is a step in the right direction. I mean guys, if you want to cry, then CRY. Who are we all trying to keep it together for? Sometimes the best way is to really let yourself feel it. Ignoring the problems right in front of you does not make them disappear. (take it from someone who tries...A LOT).

My promise to you guys is that I'm going to be real. So, yeah this part sucks, but I'm hanging in there. Remember to check in on your buddies AND sometimes the people that hurt the most are the best at smiling through it. Never assume that someone is perfectly fine!!! 

P.S. If ya'll think I should make an instagram page for this let me know!! 

P.P.S. "In the end, everything will be okay. If it's not okay, it's not yet the end." - Fernando Sabino