Nights Like These

Hello all my little cronchy leaves - not feeling cute. Like guys, @roommateMaddie and I are going THROUGH it. Basically depressed out of our MINDS. Not exaggerating either because it pisses me off when people do that!

Going to be super real; it’s not all pretty, so let’s gab! It took all of my physical strength to get out of bed just to shower - YES SHOWER...at 12pm. I’m quarantining like a good little soldier because my MTV cribz has a lil covid scare (better safe than sorry). So what do I do?! Online shop for things I don’t need. I just got some goodies in the mail and spoiler alert: I still want to launch myself off the edge of the Grand Canyon. I did a full face of makeup, cleaned my sheets, made a healthy dinner, and EVEN applied to more jobs.

WELL - I’m here to tell you guys that sometimes, you just feel like shit and no amount of new clothes, clean sheets, or yummy food can make you feel better! Wow, who knew you actually have to face your problems :’) (dear God help me) Honestly, I think I’m just going to put on a mindless show and allow myself to veg out for the night. I can’t even tell you how much I didn’t want to write this post - but I can’t let all down (at least not YET). Ugh - going to channel my inner Moira Rose, pop some Advil PM and wake up with a better attitude.

You can’t win em all - BUT imagine how much more miserable I’d be if I didn’t push myself to do the bare minimum for the day!! I mean it sucked and it didn’t make me feel BETTER but it didn’t allow myself to just wallow. So I mean - I guess keep your heads up! Sorry I’m really not feeling the creative juices rn. I’ll post something exciting during the weekend (probably not). LOL optimism is ~moderately low~

Let me know if you guys have good coping strategies to keep you from losing your mind! 🙂 don’t get me wrong - I’m usually not this bad, but the lockdown doesn’t help. Once I get out of this I’ll post some real inspiring piece about how I made it through and I’m so much better because of it. LOLLL but I need to actually get through it first...wish me luck!

P.S. “There is nothing more beautiful than when you prove to yourself just how strong you are.”